My Major Challenge ( right now)

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I do not know what's been going on with me lately, I've been taking every little thing to heart, mistakes I make myself, and mistakes others make, that affects me.
           

Things that I'd usually not raise an eyebrow about, or overlook as petty is getting me severely pissed and hurt.
              

I don't know if any other person feels this way sometimes, I've never felt it before, I'm usually quick to ignore and forgive everything, and it really doesn't linger, but these days, it's been a mess, and its all inside. I don't think I want a spiritual or supernatural microscope inside of me right now.

          

If there's something I've learnt within this period;
 *Is that unforgiveness is a terrible load, and its so weighty you're bending while walking, and your back hurts ( not literally, of course).
*And also, Joy is totally and utterly needed and absolutely a virtue.

I've not mastered the art of overcoming this already, but I'm not burning red with hate right now on my inside because I'm trying to knock it all off;
- I'm doing the confrontations I hate so much- telling them and myself what they did was wrong and I do not appreciate it

         
- Remembering beautiful times and who they are, and why they might not want to intentionally hurt me.
           
     
- Laugh..... I laugh and smile so much at every little thing, not because I find it funny, but because I need to draw up the joy inside of me, and laughter helps.....


         
Shikena

I don't have all the answers yet, but this is helping for now....
So if you do want to share yours, or you know something that might work, or you're actually going to try what I'm doing.... Please comment, I'd love to hear from you

P.S- Forgive the delayed post.... No excuses

#pecan
#winks
#joy

Comments

  1. shemaacademyJune 8, 2018 at 4:01 AM

    Hmmm. I forgive, I feel free.

    Well, when I become touchy and everything seems to get to me, I know it's a sign my love tank is low usually because I've not been praying, studying the Bible and talking to God about my own weaknesses and other issues. So, I just go right back and begin to talk to God again, I confess my 'touchiness and oversensitivity' and other faults and ask God to help me release those hurts. And BINGO!!! Slowly but surely, I get better having realized that WHAT IS WRONG IS WITH ME and NOT with them.

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  2. OhZeeJune 8, 2018 at 9:35 AM

    Well, having, keeping and even nurturing that feeling of repulsion can be stressful sometimes, so, I consciously wait for the feeling to kick in and in that exact moment I change the repulsion based words that might have been subconsciously premeditated and I replace them with better words... Then, when I'm alone... I talk to myself... With myself, as my own shrink. So, I basically just work on not expressing the feeling of disgust bluntly as I keep working on it privately...

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  3. UnknownJune 16, 2018 at 12:57 AM

    I believe I’m someone that doesn’t say it out loud if you hurt me in anyway I’ll put it in form of a joke highlighting what you did and where you went wrong.. reason being people actually get offended when you point out their errors openly so i just minimize it in a form of joke so you know where you wronged me.. I don’t really like having issues with people I’d just laugh most things off.. life is meant to be fun no matter what 😂😂🤪

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  4. PecanJuly 6, 2018 at 3:50 AM

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    1. PecanJuly 6, 2018 at 3:53 AM

      Thanks for the reply, I totally appreciate it... I can totally relate

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